you're the only road i know

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today was actually pretty boring, hah. well first off, dave woke me up this morning at like 10 by calling my cell phone. so then i talked to him for a while, then got off the phone to eat breakfast (and i had apple jacks..) after i ate, my mom wanted me to help her download some good music because she likes all the music i listen to, well most of it. also i basically listen to everything so i can usually find a ton of songs that she ends up liking! then i got on the phone again but a half hour later my mom wanted to go to the lake so i went there with her and laid in the sun reading my latest issue of teen vogue :] but that trip ended quick because it stated thundering outside and the lifeguards were like EEP! we have to clear the area. so we left and went to cvs pharmacy for like a freaking hour because my mom needed hair dye and other things and i was looking at the makeup section for like forever, scoping out all the amazing ones, hah. we ended up getting blond hair dye for my mom and two dark brown ones for me (yes, i need two because my hair is so thick), an eyeliner and brush set for me even though they had NYX eyeshadow there and i REALLYYYYY wanted it, it was just too expensive so i stuck with what i got, and my brother got MORE freaking axe body spray. i hate that stuff, it smells like freaking old men, and my mom's medicine. then i came home and i was on the phone with dave, blah blah blah. and suddenly the power went out! it was horrible, it browned out a few times which could have ruined my moms mac computer and then it blacked out for about an hour or so and it was soo boring, me, my mom, brother and my moms fiance ended up sitting on the couch talking and eating ice cream. haha i can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.

i got back from camping on friday! it was amazing, omggggg. haha we went bike riding basically the whole time but it was really fun. sometimes me and dave would just go on bike rides and sometimes jess would come with us. on one of the bike rides we went on, dave kind of skidded down a hill and hurt his balls...it was pretty hilarious. we were gonna kill jellyfish but there weren't really any in the streams of salt water. i'm pretty sure his mom likes me more now because i made her a bracelet and bought her favorite candy for her (: the third day, when his mom woke up in the morning, her hip was bothering her so we had to leave a day early. but the good thing is, i got to sleep over his house, hahah. and i feel so much closer to him now because i got to experience the thing he loves to do most, go camping. also, we got to lay next to each other and we grew closer together, it was great. i just wish it didn't end :[

I'M EXCITED! i'm going camping in six days with dave and his family and i get to share a tent with his sister! haha omg i can't wait, like you have no idea. so right now i'm eating a cookies and cream pop tart and checking my myspace crap, sounds fun, right? wrongggg, hahah just kidding, it's not that bad. anyways today my brother was going through my cell phone trying to call kiley and right under kiley's number is krystal's. so he clicked view number and he thought it was kiley so he dialed it on the house phone and he hears krystal's bitchy voice like "HELLO?" and he was like uh, who is this? and she was like WHO IS THIS, UGH and he was like uh nathan, sorry but... and then she interrupted him like OMG WTF WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME and he just like made spitting noises and hung up. and krystal is the bitch up the street at my mom's house, just making that clear. so then she decides to call my mom's house like 5 times! and i was on the phone with my mom so i heard the house phone ringing that many times and i was like omgggg so i had to call krystal and tell her to stop and that calling her was an accident, but she didn't even listen she just had her sister and friend say all this random gibberish, it was soo immature and annoying when i just wanted to handle things in a mature way. so my mom's gonna do something about it, either talk to her parents or call the police station because it's harassment and we need to do something about it. yeah, it's that bad!

if i could take three items and place them in a box and then see them again in 50 years i'm not exactly sure what i would put in there. but i actually have this red memory box that i put notes, cards, and random stuff in and i would probably put that in the box. then i have this clear crystal rectangle thing that dave got me on his vacation in florida, and inside it is like two flamingos kissing, it's the cutest thing ever, haha so that would definitely go into there. and lastly, i would print out pictures of me and my friends and family and place them in the box just in case those pictures ever get lost and i don't see them until i reopen that box. i actually made a memory box type thing when i was younger but i never stuck with it, i dug it up after like a month because i already forgot what was inside of it, hahhaa

hm, well i like a lot of foods and i'll try anything, you can't knock anything before you've tried it so i give everything a shot. of course, like everyone else, i'm a sucker for junk food, hahaha i can't live with out it definitely. i like ice cream, chips, cookies, cake, pie, all that stuff. but food i really hate is mushrooms. haha i can't eat those alone, i can eat them if they're cooked in with something but definitely not by themselves. i can stand seafood but not a lot of it and only certain types of it. a food that is actually okay is sushi, but it's too plain for me so it's just weird, hah. anyways i just got bored and wanted to sign in to do a writers block thing because these are the shit and now i'm on the phone with dave (:
you've been ditched.

hm, i haven't posted an actual blog in a few days about what's been happening in my life, haha. i use those writers block things as excuses all the time! but hey, they're fun. so the reason i haven't been online all the time typing like two journals a day like before is because the cord on my laptop kind of broke, my brother freakin' stepped on it. so i've been trying to find other things to do here at my mom's house. there's basically nothing because i have no friends here, no computer anymore, and nothing is ever on tv. i kind of hate being here but i love my mom and i couldn't live without her, literally....at my dad's there's a lot more to do, i can actually talk on the phone in my room and not be bothered, easily get to a friends house and do something, and my dad is a lot less busy or stressed than my mom. anddd the other day, when dave came back from camping we got into this HUGE fight about this girl he hung out with for a day and me being extremely jealous, completely flipped out over the situation and he was pissed. but of course our fights bring us closer together all the time, so for the past three days he's been super nice to me and we've had a lot to talk about so it's really cool. and tomorrow i'm going to rhode island with his family to go to the beach and it's going to be amazing! lol i can't wait to blog about that, last time we built this awesome sand castle with a mote and everything and i kinda hung out with his sister by the water, it was really fun. i better bring good stuff to do during the car ride.. :]

when i was younger i used to have this same dream at least twice a week, always. it was me running throughout this haunted looking house and i was looking for my dad. and while i was running, these ugly weird things would be like chasing me and it was really scary. and then when i finally found my dad i would be screaming, telling him to save me from those things but he would just look past them and he couldn't hear what i was saying to him. i remember thinking at the time that it was the scariest dream ever and i would wake up like screaming and crying. i still don't know why i had that dream over and over again. but i think it was trying to infer that my dad was ignoring me a lot, no matter how much i screamed or cried. although, around those times when i was little, my dad had a drinking problem and either he was out working, or too drunk to listen to what i had to say or to even pay attention to me. so i think those dreams were trying to tell me something about that.

yesterday was my ALMOST cousin's 21st birthday. olivia's older brother, haha. he lives at this campground place which i thought was pretty cool that he actually lived at one. he lives there because when he was like 9 years old, he went into the big brother, big sister program. for some reason he got paired up with a 20 something year old woman named melissa. so i guess melissa was running for state senate, or she is, i forget. so melissa owns the campground that he lives at, he gets to live there for free and it's pretty cool. haha we were thirsty so damon just took us in the little store and took like 20 something drinks out of the fridge thing and we got to take them, lol it felt like we were robbing the store or something but it was fun. then there were fireworks and olivia, me and my brother watched them. after the fireworks, there was a live band playing and they were pretty good. but like omg the old people thought they were so cool, dancing around and stuff. and there was this one old lady who like wet herself, lmao it was SOOO gross she was dancing and everyone saw her and was laughing, either she noticed and didnt care or she was too drunk to care or notice. lol all together it was really fun and it was a good time (: haha

happy 4th everyone (: hahha well today was a boring day but very tiring. yeah it kind of makes no sense it's the truth. haha i went to my mom's fiance's mom's house for this picnic thing with my mom's fiance's brother and his girlfriend and her daughter. gosh that's a mouthful. but i hung out with her and her name's olivia. we had a lot in common like we listened to the same music and had the same opinions on certain stuff so we walked around and complained about how lame the picnic was. haha but then her mom and her moms boyfriend got into a fight and her mom like drove off and left her there so it was all this drama happening, it definitely sucked. and then later on i went to my grandparents house because it was my grandmas birthday. that was so freaking boring, i just read and went on the computer and texted olivia and took pictures of random stuff. all that running around all day and everything made me pretty tired!